Archive for May, 2010

I’m Selfish

I just realized that I’m selfish today

and tomorrow I’ll probably be the same.

I find that every night I pray

that your life is exciting and never lame.

That you be happy and content with life

that darkness never shade your way

That joy overtake the hardship and strife

Why this makes me selfish, I’ll begin to explain…

I just want you to be happy, I sincerely do

And that you find the one that makes you feel that way

By, to you and himself, being forever true

Knowing you already found him, and I dare to say:

Soy yo!

C’est Moi!

It’s me you say you haven’t found!

It’s me the one that’s always been around

to make you smile

and let you say

“This world is wild

but it’ll be okay.”

So I am selfish.

Overconfident? Maybe…

But that’s just how sure I am

That you’ll be happy here with me.

(May 15, 2010)



It’s hard to realize

that life won’t take you where you wish.

It won’t be served to you

on a silver-plated dish.

And even if I fight

, I might not get there

but that doesn’t stop me from trying

from fighting the fight

without losing sight

of inevitable endings

while the rest is pending.

I am resolved

with this problem not solved

and that’s ok.

This is what I want knowing where it won’t take me.

Because fighting for something with uncertainty

is better than living with certain conformity.

I Will Not Accept

I can accept that life isn’t always fair
I can accept that I can’t drive without risking it all
I can accept that I can’t work while having it all:
a college degree, some experience, “the will”
But “the way” is unreachable, keeping me still
I can accept that I have it all and I have nothing!

But I cannot accept, and will always reject
that I cannot love
for the reasons above!
I will always fight this monster, embodied by
the racist views
against differenct hues
of my skin and tone
I will never condone
my inability to love
I will always fight this monster fed stronger by
no reaction
or ignorace
to bigger plans
of this country’s racial purification.
And it’s not just a crazy allegation
when the very fabrication
of SB1070 was by an organization
whose sole purpose is a white America.

So I won’t accept that because they’re afraid of “losing”
a country begotten by the raping and pillaging
of native villages
and ignore the truth, which is…
They are holding on to what’s not rightfully just theirs
and tearing me apart from what’s rightfully mine
I don’t wanna take over your country…
I wanna be part of it…
So that I can love the woman I love
and she can love me how it’s meant to be
without having to fear
that the end is near
when I drive to go see her.

So that getting stopped
for getting caught
in the park at night
will not give us fright
along with a vision
of total submission
to the situation that tells us that we cannot love each other
because I am undocumented
so our love is too
and that it doesn’t matter
if our love is true.

I will fight this heartless wind
I have faith that love will one day win.